When I woke up that Sunday, I didn't want Monday to come. I didn't want it to come so hard that I cried into my cereal. I cried into my hymnbook, onto the shoulders of my friends. I cried all day, that's how I knew something was wrong. By the time Monday came I knew it could never come that way again. I gave my notice that day, and visited a therapist later in the week. She and I identified what I was experiencing as "nonprofit burnout".
In 3 years I worked for 5 nonprofit organizations. The experiences I had working for those agencies will stay with me the rest of my life.
I met a refugee man whose son was in a wheelchair because he was shot by the police. He told me about his son's struggle and his own fight to make progress in their new American home.
I was served spongy Ethiopian bread, crisp somosas, and countless cups of chai by beautiful and humble women in tiny apartments.
I talked to teenage boys about their struggles doing Math, and their successes in sports and social life.
I received a bounty of experience, and made lovely friends who I will always treasure. But somehow it wore me out, and had to jump off the edge of the sidewalk, hoping to land somewhere new.
I gave three weeks notice, and within two weeks I found employment with a company of all female gardeners called the Utah Garden Girls.
Plants are my refuge. They accept my care without question or nuance. Nature makes me feel good, it always has. As a gardener I get to learn, think, and be my happy introverted self. I get to work with my body, and spend the winter taking care of other things.
In the winter gardeners can't garden.
So I am going to Mexico to volunteer for an organization that helps disaster affected areas respond and rebuild in a lasting way. I first volunteered with All Hands and Hearts in their Long Island, NY project after hurricane Sandy. I was impressed by the long hours volunteers put in and the way the agency directs their energy to do the most good, instead of coddling volunteers and making touchy feely experiences for them.
I am thrilled to be going to Mexico and will update you on how things go there. Please consider donating to my fundraising page to help cover the costs of construction on the Narcisa Mendoza Primary School. I promise to bust my butt on your behalf.
It was amazing how good I felt the first few weeks of gardening. I came home from work with energy to love and play that was missing from my life for a long time. Now that I am strong again, I'm ready to get to work.
Thank you!
Adventures
Thursday, December 6, 2018
Wednesday, April 27, 2016
A Blog Post for Karen (partially because you are the only person that reads my blog and partially because you are the best)
If you are not Karen, you can obviously still read this. However, I don't really want you to. This is Karen's post just for Karen. If you choose to read this post, know that I don't want to talk to you about it. I'll only accept criticism or compliments from Karen. So go ahead and read it, but don't talk to me about it.
At one point in my teenage years I was biking. I don't remember where I was biking, most likely up the mountain to home from town. The climb is steep, it's Colorado. Out of breath and tired I asked myself, "why are you doing this?" In that one sweaty breathless moment I asked myself, "why"? Some people lift weights, others run on treadmills, some chose racquetball, but I've always had chosen biking, walking, and running. I thought about it the rest of the way home and finally decided that I chose running, biking, and walking so that I could get away.
Living in a small town one often observes trapped peoples. Daughters of teen moms become teen moms whose children become teen moms. Some people just don't leave home, ever. I don't remember how young I learned about the eddy's of small town life that can leave you paddling to nowhere, but on this bike ride in my teenage years I discovered that covering ground made me feel free. I could get away if I needed to. I could pack a backpack and walk across the world, or jump on my bike and pedal away from the swirling current of my life.
I forgot about this thought until recently. I was biking up the same hill at 24 years of age, with difficulty. I was running the same road, looking out at the same Rocky Mountains I used to watch as I wore out my sneakers. I just got home. I just got home after being away for years. There are new faces in town, people I've never met and probably won't. Some familiar things are gone: the soda fountain, my friends, my desire to Rollerblade every day. There are new things popping up: a flashing sign that advertises town events, a dollar store, strangers.
The last few months have been strange. When I first arrived home I didn't even know who I was. It was clear that I could not bring all of my new self into this old place. It was clear that I was not who I used to be. I had to do a lot of exploring. I listened to songs I hadn't heard in ages and asked myself, "Do I like this? Do I really like it?" I discarded many old clothes and deleted whole sections of my past. I cut a triangle into my hair, kissed a stranger, meditated, tested, tried, and constructed. So here's a little about me now:
I like the blues.
I have stage fright.
I think purple is ugly.
I like love stories, movies, and experiences.
Karen is my favorite.
I love my home.
I am impatient, social, punctual, creative, sweet, and a little lazy.
It's been an interesting ride, deciding again who I am and what I like. It's also been incredibly fun. I've made some mistakes in my explorations, I've tripped a couple times, but at the end of the day it feels good to be transitioning, changing, metamorphosing, moving. I've been diligent about biking, running, and walking often, just in case I should have to get away. I feel lucky to have this place. I feel lucky to be looking at the same mountains as a very different person. I feel exhilarated by the challenge of coming and going from this rocky home.
On another bike ride around the same time as the one I mentioned before.. I thought of this line: "I am surrounded by mountains on every side, is this a trap or a ramp for take off?"
Karen, I love you.
Thursday, May 8, 2014
Feminists in the Bloggernacle: How the internet is changing the way Mormon women talk about themselves.
Preintroduction introduction: This project has basically been ruling my life for the last 9 months. It isn't really the kind of piece that I would traditionally blog... but many respondents to my survey, friends, and family expressed a desire to see what I've been obsessing over/working on for the last 9 months so here you are. I'm really really happy to be done with college (I'm hoping there will be a little more time for poetry now). Please leave comments or questions, and good luck getting through this 16 page behemoth. Cheerio, Hannah.
Abstract
In
this autoethnographic study I will explore the diverse views about female
priesthood ordination within the LDS community. I also will discuss the role of
the internet in initiating changes within the church. Currently in the Mormon
community there has been a great deal of discussion about the role of women in
the church, particularly regarding priesthood ordination and access to
leadership positions. In this research I surveyed 150 church members and asked
them a variety of questions about their views concerning the role of women, the
processes of change within the church, and their participation in online
discussions of this topic. I compounded my interviews with discourse analysis
of several Mormon blogs and library research. I found that changes within the
church and opinions about female ordination are influenced by the online
discussions that take place on blogs. The changes evident in Mormon culture
regarding women’s roles are reflective of the changing position of women within
a broader social context.
Introduction
I
recently learned that I am most persuaded by the post-modernist model of
anthropology. As a post-modern anthropologist, I am going to be forthright
about my biases. I am a Mormon[i]. On February 20th
of this year I received letter from the president of the Church of Jesus Christ
of Latter-day Saints calling me to serve a mission in Dallas, Texas. I am going
to spend the next 18 months of my life teaching people about Jesus and inviting
them to be baptized in the Mormon Church. The second bias I will confess is
that I am a woman, and a feminist. I believe that women are equally as
intelligent as men, and equally as important in our society. I believe that we
absolutely deserve equal pay for equal work, equal representation in politics,
on television, and perfect equality in the home and family. In this paper I
will discuss the role of the internet in initiating changes in the Mormon
Church, particularly focusing on changes regarding the role of women.
Lately
there have been several public demonstrations in Salt Lake City by a group
known as, “Ordain Women.” Part of the organization’s mission statement reads:
We are committed to work for equality and the
ordination of Mormon women to the priesthood. Based on the principle of
thoughtful, faith-affirming strategic action, Ordain Women aspires to create a space
for Mormon women to articulate issues of gender inequality they may be hesitant
to raise alone. As a group we intend to put ourselves in the public eye and
call attention to the need for the ordination of Mormon women to the
priesthood. (“Mission Statement”)
This mission statement
brings up several elements which I will be discussing in this paper: the
relationship between Mormon women and priesthood power, the complexity of
gender identity in Mormonism, and how the internet is providing a place for
people to discuss topics and concerns that they may not feel comfortable
bringing up within their real world communities.
Although
Mormon women in general feel respected and secure in their roles in the church
there are differing views evident in the blogosphere particularly in regards to
access to the priesthood and leadership opportunities in the church.
Priesthood
A book
called True to the Faith published by the LDS church provides a brief
description of the priesthood. As a lifelong church member, I feel that this
description aptly describes the way most LDS members understand it:
God gives priesthood authority to worthy male
members of the Church so they can act in His name for the salvation of His
children. Priesthood holders can be authorized to preach the gospel, administer
the ordinances of salvation, and govern the kingdom of God on the earth
(Priesthood 128).
There are several things
worth noting in this statement. First, that priesthood authority is given by
God to all worthy male members. It is conferred from one man to another, but
ultimately, it comes from God. Second, the priesthood gives men the authority
to preach the gospel, administer ordinances like baptism and the sacrament, and
“govern the kingdom of God on earth.” I would suggest that “governing the
kingdom of God” means that all those in governing positions in the Mormon Church
hold the priesthood. The prophet or president of the church holds all the keys
or powers of the priesthood. Each bishop holds priesthood keys specific to his
position, as do the awkward twelve-year -old
boys who pass around the trays of bread and water for the sacrament.
The
Rights and Rites of the Priesthood
Since its
organization in New York state in 1830 the church has been governed by priestly
authority. However, the availability of the priesthood to all worthy males, and
some of the responsibilities associated with holding the priesthood, has not
been so consistent. In the early church, black men were able to receive the
priesthood and participate in temple ordinances. Joseph Smith, the first
president of the LDS church, openly condemned slavery and racism (White and
White 1995:297). In 1852, President Brigham Young revoked those rights,
instituting the “Priesthood Ban” (Ibid).
A recent statement published by the church entitled, “Race and the Priesthood”
addresses this change, claiming that the ban was a result of the church’s
establishment in an environment of racism, and the racist inclinations of church
members and leadership, not direction from God (“Race and the Priesthood”). In
1978, then president of the church, Spencer W. Kimball, concerned about the
status of African Americans in the church, went to the temple and received a
revelation that the priesthood ban should be lifted. All at once, black males
could also receive the priesthood and attend the temple. Within the next ten
years between 100,000 and 125,000 people of African descent joined the church
(White and White 1995: 274).
The relationship
between women and the priesthood has also seen some changes between the time
the church was founded and the present. Although Mormon women never officially
held the priesthood, in the early church they were directed and ordained to
perform blessings on the sick, a rite that today is only performed by
priesthood holders (Newel 1999:31). In her article published in Sunstone
magazine, “A Gift Given: A Gift Taken: washing, anointing, and healing of the
sick among Mormon women,” Linda King Newell (1999) discusses the role of women
as healers in the early church and how their authority changed as priesthood duties
became more clearly defined. Newell provides considerable historical evidence
for the argument that LDS women in the late 1800’s frequently administered
blessings on the sick, especially to women who were about to give birth (Newell
1999:33) . Included in her article are official statements by presidents of the
church and other area authorities regarding a woman’s right to administer to
her family and to other women in need. Many of those statements make it clear that
those women who heal do so by the authority they are awarded as faithful church
members, not as priesthood holders (Newell 1999: 32). In the early 1900’s,
women in leadership positions in the Relief Society, the church's organization
for women that I will address in detail later in this paper, began to question
the propriety of performing blessings on the sick without priesthood
supervision. According to Newell, gradually “an emerging definition of
priesthood authority, and an increased emphasis on its importance, would remove
more and more spiritual responsibilities from women and cluster them to the
priesthood. (Newell 1999:36)” By the mid-1920’s, women had stopped blessing the
sick altogether. The practice of women blessing the sick was not taken away or
given in a moment; it was gradually lost as the definition and significance of
the priesthood changed.
Changes
in Culture and Gender Roles
This change occurred
in concurrence with changing expectations for women in Mormon culture. In her
article, “Evolution of Ideals for Mormon Women in Periodicals, 1897-1999,”
Laura Vance conducts an analysis of women’s roles as they were discussed in
Mormon periodicals over a 98-year span. Vance discovered that in the late
1800’s and early 1900’s every article she analyzed that contained references to
the role of women involved their participation in non-traditional roles. She
describes non-traditional as not having to do with homemaking or child rearing
(Vance 1999:98). In the 1920’s, that changed. Suddenly, traditional roles were
encouraged in those same periodicals. In the 1970’s the emphasis on women’s
fulfillment of traditional roles intensified and peaked. Since then, a middle
ground has been found. Vance attributes those changes to the status of the LDS
church as a developing religious organization. She argues that there are phases
of development that drive emerging religious organizations away from the
mainstream culture at their inception. Once they obtain a following, new
churches move into a phase of assimilation to gain recognition and acceptance
within the larger culture (Vance 1999: 98-104). That these changes occurred when they did, at
a time when the gender role of women was being discussed as part of the women’s
liberation movement, further indicates that the church makes changes in
reaction to what is happening within the broader culture. In this case, it was
a conservative reaction, while in the early church it was decidedly liberal.
Amy Hoyt and Sara
Patterson conducted research similar to Vance’s analysis. They looked at the
changes that took place for men in periodicals from 1890-1920. They argue that
the concept of Mormon masculinity held currently within the church has largely
been shaped by the need to differentiate from and conform to external factors
in US culture; it is a product of the church’s attempts to both assimilate and
remain distinct (Hoyt and Patterson 2011). Just as it was for women, the
changing expectations for Men were largely influenced by events and attitudes
that were not specifically a part of Mormon culture, but part of the US culture
that the church was developing in at that time.
The
Mormon Woman
The role of modern Mormon
women at church and in the home is far from simple, as I have described above
it is a mix of rejection and adherence to social norms, but it also includes
spiritual beliefs about the importance of the family, and the role of women as
nurturers, caregivers, leaders and the spiritual offspring of God.
Feminist critics of
Mormonism have often argued that the patriarchal organization of the church
puts women in a position where they are subordinate and viewed as inferior. But
this position is not completely shared by Mormon women. In her article, “Beyond
the Victim/Empowerment Paradigm: the Gendered Cosmology of Mormon Women,” Amy
Hoyt (2007) discusses the gap between feminists and the way that many Mormon
women perceive their own situation. She
claims that within the Mormon cosmology there are doctrines that emphasize the
divine nature of womanhood, and that a woman’s role is equally important (for
success in this life and the next) to a man’s.
The concept that both sexes are equally valued is congruent with
feminist ideals. Yet, Hoyt argues that when feminist scholars critique
Mormonism, they often get hung up on the patriarchy of the church and the
victimization of women being denied equal access to leadership positions. This
sets them up to overlook the ways that women are empowered even as they fulfill
traditional domestic roles. Similarly, Mormon women often reject feminism
because it is packaged as a rejection of domestic roles (Hoyt 2007:90-93). Hoyt’s discussion of feminism and Mormonism
is complemented by an article written by journalist Peggy Stack published in
the Wilson Quarterly in 1991. Stack also addresses the paradoxical position of
Mormon women. As a Mormon herself, Stack discusses her personal struggles with
identifying herself as a feminist within the church. She says, “How ironic all
this is: It is precisely my Mormon desire to reform the world into a
"kingdom" that makes me chafe at the typical Mormon view of women; it
is my Mormon optimism that makes me believe that change, even heroic change, is
possible. Indeed, it is my Mormonness that makes me a feminist and makes it
hurt to be one” (Stack 1991: 2).
There are several
ways that I have noticed this dissonance between Mormonism and feminism in my
own life. Women in the church are urged by church leadership to get as much
education as possible and acquire the skills to be providers should the need
present itself. At the same time, women are encouraged to take on traditional
domestic roles. In the most recent General Conference of the church, Elder D.
Todd Christofferson said in his talk, “The Moral Force of Women:”
We do not diminish the value of what
women or men achieve in any worthy endeavor or career—we all benefit from those
achievements—but we still recognize there is not a higher good than motherhood
and fatherhood in marriage. There is no superior career, and no amount of
money, authority, or public acclaim can exceed the ultimate rewards of family.
Whatever else a woman may accomplish, her moral influence is no more optimally
employed than here (Christofferson 2013).
My personal pursuit
of a career in anthropology is influenced by the idea that I might eventually
abandon it to pursue a career in motherhood. A friend of mine frequently jokes
about this paradox. Whenever someone in our circle of young Mormon lady friends
does something that might identify them as a homemaker (this includes any kind
of cooking, sewing, crafting, or childcare skills) she says, “You’ll make such
a great wife someday!” It is a compliment
slightly backhanded in nature, but if that backhandedness is acknowledged,
the victim is denying the importance of motherhood. This trap she lays
describes the situation that women are frequently confronted with in the
church, and in society at large.
An
important element of the religious life of Mormon women is the Relief Society.
The Relief Society was organized in 1842 by a group of Mormon women who wanted
a more official kind of participation in church affairs. Joseph Smith’s wife,
Emma, was the organization’s first president. The society was
organized by Joseph Smith after several of the women of the church proposed
that “the sisters organize to help the needy and distressed” (Jerry and Jerry
1981:34).
At
first, membership in the organization was exclusive (“Daughters in my Kingdom”
Ch.2), but at present, every woman over 18 that is a baptized member of the
church is automatically invited into the Relief Society. No men are members of the Relief Society. If
you walked into a relief society meeting this Sunday wherever you are in the
world, a woman would conduct the meeting, teach the lesson, and probably hug
you on the way out the door. In historical accounts of the early relief society
meetings, Emma Smith and her counselors[ii]
were “set apart” or ordained to preside over the women in the organization
(“Daughters in my Kingdom” Ch.2). In one of the first meetings, Joseph Smith,
the president of the church, said, “This society is to get instruction through
the order which God has established—through the medium of those appointed to
lead—and now I turn the key to you in the name of God” (“Daughters in my
Kingdom”). Here women are directly and clearly given authority to preside over
other women. Similarly, in the present- day
organization of the church, women preside over the Young Women’s organization
and the children’s programs. Although the Bishop oversees all of these
branches, not one of them is ever headed by a man. At the same time, it is in
the Relief Society where the importance of the traditional roles of wife and
mother are most emphasized.
Growing
up as a Mormon I have always been somewhat familiar with the priesthood, the
purpose and establishment of the relief society, and what is expected of me as
a woman. I have on several occasions found myself at a point of questioning
whether or not I would be happy fulfilling those expectations. I feel that my
disposition lends itself to the nurturing, serving, family-oriented, Mormon
woman that I am supposed to be, but the picture of a house in some Salt Lake
suburb, the doting husband with a practical 9-5, and the casserole in the oven
that culturally accompanies those traits absolutely fills me with dread.
Several years ago when I was fully submersed in that dread, I wandered onto the
internet in search of company. A friend of mine had posted a link to a blog she
had written for called modermormonmen.com on her Facebook page. The title of
her post and the domain name of the blog intrigued me, so I clicked the link
and read several posts. What I discovered was a community of people whose ideas
were very similar to mine. Many of the bloggers had deeply rooted faith, but
they questioned many cultural aspects of church life, and discussed the
church’s relationship to social issues like gay marriage and gender inequality
in very thoughtful and educated way. This was something I wasn’t finding in my
real life, so it was refreshing and exciting to me. After several years of
reading modernmormonmen.com and other liberal Mormon blogs, I noticed that the
topic of gender inequality in the church was coming up more and more. Curious
about whether or not conversations about gender inequality were happening
outside of the internet, how many people were participating in the online
conversation, and how opinions about female ordination varied, I decided to
pursue this research.
Methods
In my research I
combined internet surveys with discourse analysis of Mormon blogs. I decided to
take a qualitative approach to this research because I felt that qualitative
questionnaires, evaluations, and surveys would be the most effective tool to
elicit people’s feelings, opinions, and behaviors connected to this topic.
My methods for
carrying out this project were quite simple. I created a survey consisting of 17
questions that were mostly directly asked about opinions and behaviors, with
some demographic questions for context. The full survey is included in appendix
A. I posted the survey on my personal Facebook page. I requested that only people over 18 years of
age participate in the survey and, in my introduction, I identified Mormons as
my target group. I invited anyone who felt so inclined to share the survey with
their friends or anyone who they thought might find it interesting. I also
contacted an administrator on youngmormonfeminist.com who posted the survey on
youngmormonfeminists.com for a short time. When I reached 150 responses, I
closed the survey.
In addition to the
survey, I conducted discourse analysis of six Mormon blogs. These blogs were
named by respondents to my survey as blogs they frequently checked. In this analysis I looked at the first seven
blog posts that came up when I entered the word, “priesthood” in the search
bar. A full list of the blogs I examined, as well as demographic information
about my respondents, can be found in appendix A.
Anthropological
Framework
As I developed my
methods and plan for carrying out this research, I reflected on some of the
anthropology that I found most persuasive and interesting. I borrowed several
elements from Zora Neale Hurston’s anthropological method as discussed in Ruth
Behar and Deborah Gordon’s volume “Women Writing Culture. Behar and Gordon’s
exploration of anthropological history by women and about women is what first
piqued my interest in feminist anthropology, but Hurston’s autoethnographical
approach specifically appealed to me. Hurston began her anthropological career
by studying her own people, and using anthropological frameworks and methods
produced readable and approachable work. She also emphasized the importance of
self-reflexivity, and the inclusion of the anthropologist in the write-up of
the research. These are all things I hoped to achieve in this study (Hernandez
1995: 151).
I also drew on Renato
Rosaldo’s post-modernist anthropological framework. In his version of
anthropology, Rosaldo suggests that anthropology is a negotiation between the
perceptions of the observer and the people they are observing. He also
discusses the importance of empathy and experience in doing anthropological
research (Rosaldo 2004: 542).
In the 2012 AAA Annual
Review of Anthropology, Ruth Gomberg-Muñoz wrote an article cheekily entitled,
“Public Anthropology Year in Review: Actually Rick, Florida could use a few
more anthropologists” In this review,
Gomberg- Muñoz argues that it is important for anthropologists to be critics
and proponents of social activism. She states that, “Anthropological analysis
is complex, multifaceted, and embedded in political issues. This complexity
makes anthropology vital to public discourse that is increasingly directed by
apparent but one-dimensional truths” (Gomberg-Muñoz 2012). My choice to study this topic was largely
because I believed it was the movement about which I could most effectively
study using Hurston and Rosaldo’s theories and methods.
Reading and Writing
One of the
most striking things about doing this analysis was the ease with which the
responses came. I opened the survey on January 27th and by February
17th, with one Facebook post and two emails, I had received 150
responses. This process reveals some interesting things about how Mormons
communicate. Of the people I surveyed, 36% indicated that they regularly write
a blog and 64% indicated that they read Mormon blogs, some as frequently as three
times a day. It is worth noting that 18%
of the people I surveyed wrote blogs specifically about gender issues. Other
bloggers indicated that they write about their lives and families, their
spiritual experiences, politics, relationships, books, etc. I do not have the
data to compare Mormon blogging activities with those of people of other religious
persuasions, but the fact is that Mormons are writing, and reading.
This behavior is not
without a foundation in Mormon doctrine.
As I mentioned previously, Mormon women (and men too) are encouraged to
get as much education as possible. The belief in an all knowing God and understanding
that it is our mission as humans to become like God are fundamental to our
religion. That becoming like God involves both intellectual and spiritual
learning is frequently emphasized in Mormon discourse. In addition, Mormons are
encouraged to document their lives in journals and books of remembrance[iii]. The Book of Mormon, the
book most central to Mormon doctrine, was written on the premise that it is
crucial to document personal and group histories. In the book of Mormon, Mosiah
1:3 states:
And he also taught them concerning the records
which were engraven on the plates of brass, saying: My sons, I would that ye
should remember that were it not for these plates, which contain these records
and these commandments, we must have suffered in ignorance, even at this
present time, not knowing the mysteries of God (The Book of Mormon).
The
Mormon cultural emphasis on reading and writing is therefore scripturally based
and deeply engrained.
In recent years, the emphasis to journal and record has been
expanded to include posting on Facebook and blogging. These additions have been
part of an increased emphasis on missionary work. In a recent General Conference
address, Apostle Neal A. Anderson stated, “For those using the Internet and
mobile phones, there are new ways to invite others to “come and see.” Let’s
make sharing our faith online more a part of our daily life. LDS.org,
Mormon.org, Facebook, Twitter—all provide opportunities” (Anderson 2013).
The church is encouraging its members to participate in online
activities and communicate their religion using tools the internet provides. Mormons
are heeding their call.
What we talk about when we talk about women and
the priesthood
The
responses I received from my survey were almost equally in favor and against
female ordination to the priesthood. I don’t believe that church members are equally
divided on this issue. I specifically sought out the opinions of people who
were participating in the Ordain Women (by having my survey posted on
youngmormonfeminist.com, which is, I believe, why I obtained an almost equal
amount of responses for both those in-favor and those against. It was important
to me that both sides be represented in my survey.
The
arguments in favor of female ordination were quite diverse. Some brought up the
church history that I discussed earlier in the paper; others claimed that
biblically women held the priesthood, citing references to Anna the prophetess
in the book of Luke and Deborah in the book of Judges. Many of the respondents
stated that they felt female ordination was the only way to rectify the sexism
that exists in Mormon culture. Many
expressed that they had experienced sexist treatment and felt,
as one respondent stated, “Like second class citizens in the Kingdom of God.”
In
response to the question, “As a man or a woman, does your role at church differ
from your role at home? How?”, almost all of the people who argued in favor of
priesthood ordination felt that their roles at home and at church were
significantly different from one another. Many women said that they felt that
they were equal to their spouses at home, having the same amount (or more) of
administrative authority. One respondent said, “At home I don’t defer to
anybody. I make decisions according to my conscience. I discuss ideas with my
husband, of course, but his views are no more important than mine. At church I
defer, constantly.” This statement is representative of dozens more that I
received in my survey. Even some of the male respondents indicated that they
were uncomfortable with having more administrative power at church, when they
work in equal partnerships with women in other areas of their lives.
The
complementarity of female and male roles was the most common theme in the
responses I received that were not in favor of female ordination. One respondent’s
answer I feel adequately represents the argument. She said in response to the
question, “Do you think that priesthood ordination should be available to
women?”
No I do not think that they should. I believe
that men and women have different roles in this life. Because they are not
exactly the same does not make one more important than the other. In fact, I
believe that the differences make us able to have stronger relationships. The
men’s role in our religion is to hold the priesthood. It is a sacred and
important responsibility. Women are called to hold the noble position of being
able to create life. Together they go hand in hand, side by side, one not being
a greater calling than the other and together making each other better.
Many women who answered my
survey expressed that they were satisfied and fulfilled by their roles as wives
and mothers. Some indicated that they appreciated that men could exclusively
hold the priesthood because it was simply, “one less thing they have to do.”
Some felt that allowing women equal access to the priesthood would diminish the
importance of men and that, “a man’s role is becoming culturally
insignificant.” Many also said that they felt the priesthood should not be
available to women simply because it has not yet been revealed [iv]to church leadership that
it should be.
We agree
Regardless
of whether respondents were in favor of or against female ordination there were
a few things upon which everyone agreed. Almost all the respondents, save only
three or four, agreed that change was good for the church. Most respondents
acknowledged that the church has made changes to policies in the past that have
helped its membership move past racism and sexism. They also indicated that
having a belief in continuing revelation, which is one of the foundational
beliefs of Mormonism, means that things are always going to be changing. Along
those same lines was the thread that as humans and human culture are always
changing, our organizations and cultural practices must change as well.
Another thing that both
sides had in common was the value of discussion. A full 89% of the respondents
indicated that they had discussed the issue of female ordination with their
friends and family.
On the blogs
The blog
posts about ordaining women that I analyzed in my study were written using the
same language and arguments as the responses that I received in favor of
priesthood ordination for women. Some of the people I surveyed were authors of
the blogs, but considerably more were subscribers who read them regularly. I
would suggest that these blogs are contributing to the discussion of Mormon
feminism by helping people articulate their feelings and concerns about sexism
in the church. Many of the bloggers and blog subscribers that I surveyed said
that they started getting involved in online Mormon feminism because they were
frustrated by the sexism they were experiencing in church settings. Some felt
that blogging and reading blogs was a way of taking action against sexism, and
others said that they used blogging, and
participating in online discussions as a way to cope.
Changes are happening
There have recently
been some changes to church policies that have to do with gender. In the past,
women who desired to serve missions for the church had to wait until they were
21 years old, while young men who wished to go could leave at age 19. In
October of 2012, the president of the church, Thomas S. Monson, announced that
women would be able to go on missions at 19 and men at 18. According to a New
York Times article, shortly after the age change, 23,000 young women signed up
to serve missions, tripling the number of female missions before the age change
(Kantor and Goldstein 2014). I will not go into depth about the implications of
this increase, but it is clear that many Mormon women, and not only those
openly requesting more responsibility by petitioning for the priesthood, are
looking for more. They are looking for more opportunities for leadership and
service, and more authority to contribute to the governance and welfare of the
church.
In small ways (like
changing the mission age) the church is reacting in response to changes in the
larger society. As incongruities between balances of power at home and church
settings become more obvious, so will the aspects of church culture and policy
that limit the contributions women make to the organization. Does this mean
that Mormon women will be ordained? Maybe, and maybe not. There have not been
any quantitative studies regarding opinions about female ordination within
church membership. With 15,000,000 members scattered all over the world, such
an endeavor would be difficult. There are clearly a range of strong and deeply
heartfelt opinions about the matter. Any sudden and large overarching changes
to church policy regarding the priesthood would likely cause disjunction among
the membership and could potentially lead to problems with cohesion within the
church. While some Mormon feminists argue that small changes like the age change
and more power being given to the wives of mission presidents, etc. are tools
used by church leadership to satiate and quiet those who are calling for more
dramatic changes, I would argue that minute changes are stepping stones on the
way to something bigger. As it has in the past, the church will continue to
shift until it reaches a balance between rejection of larger cultural norms and
assimilation to current social realities.
Blogging is a part of
that shift. As LDS women voice their concerns about sexism and their desires
for more responsibility, the less-than-equal practices that are part of Mormon
culture are brought to light and questioned. Men and women, regardless of their
opinions on priesthood ordination, are thinking about and discussing equality
with their spouses and their children. People concerned about gender inequality
are gathering together on the internet to encourage, console, inform, and
complain to each other. Whether or not changes occur overnight or women ever
get the priesthood, the topic of gender equality is being dug out from the back
of the closet, dusted off, and displayed. How will it be tailored? I’m not
sure, but we’re all watching.
When I started doing
this research, I was a little bit afraid to look at my own culture anthropologically.
As I have sent around and posted surveys, I am sure that some members of my
very personal Mormon community have questioned whether or not I should be
asking these questions; perhaps they have been concerned for my spiritual
welfare. There have been moments where I have not wanted to read angry feminist
blog posts about how blinded I am by my religion and how repressed I am by men,
but there have also been moments when I have been touched and inspired by
survey responses from both sides of the argument. If anyone outside of Mormon
culture had done this research, I would have been offended that someone was
trying to reduce my culture and part of my identity into social theory. I would
be suspicious that they did not comprehend the spiritual nature of any
discussion or change within the church. [v]
Conclusions
Recent changes in
church policy are occurring in response to changes happening within the broader
culture. Gender equality in the home is
one aspect of that broader culture that is causing women to notice and question
their power and influence outside of the home. The internet is providing a
space for discussions about these changes and questions, and initiating
conversations within homes and among the church leadership that makes policy
changes. It also serves to connect like-minded individuals who may be
geographically distant. Although Mormon women are divided on the issue of
female ordination, all are benefitting from the conversations that are
happening online.
Anthropologists should pay attention to
what’s happening in our own cultures. Especially looking at social activism as
a way to see what changes are or should happening more broadly. This study is
one example of how activism within a group sheds light on the overall position
of the group.
As the issue of
female ordination continues to develop, there will be more questions to ask,
and more changes to analyze. I will be on a mission, in Dallas, TX, and will be
unavailable to comment for the next 18 months. But if you are interested in
further exploring Mormon ethnography, check a blog.
Acknowledgements
Special thanks to Dr.
Kathy Fine for being my primary reader, PI and guiding me in this research, and
Dr. Kelly Jenks for her comments and help. Thanks to Baley Springmeyer for
support in all things and camping. Thanks to Ashley Kuchar who helped me overcome
my qualms about studying my own people. Thanks goes to my Mom for helping me
thesisize and for conversing with my for many hours about this topic. Finally,
I would like to thank everyone who filled out my survey and Heather from
youngmormonfeminists.org for posting it on her blog.
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Appendix A
Survey:
Hello. My name is Hannah Watts and I am
a senior anthropology major at Fort Lewis College. I am conducting an
undergraduate anthropology senior seminar research project focused on the
conversations surrounding whether or not women should be ordained into the LDS
priesthood. Because you have been identified as someone who is interested in or
may know something about this topic, I am asking if you would be willing to
answer a few survey questions. Most importantly, I want to make certain that I
have your informed consent should you conduct this survey.
There are some possible social risks
involved in participating in this research. To minimize these risks, all
information will be handled in a strictly confidential manner so that no one
will be able to identify you if you request anonymity. The information I gather
will be incorporated into my final senior seminar paper, into a poster, and
will be presented to the campus community. It may also eventually be presented
at professional conferences, other public venues, and/or in scholarly
publications. If you wish to read my final research paper and/or to attend my
oral presentation (which will take place in mid to late April, 2014) please let
me know and we can make arrangements.
CONTACT INFORMATION: Please feel free
to contact the project advisor, Dr. Kathleen (Kathy) Fine-Dare, 970-247-7438
(fine_k@fortlewis.edu) or student researcher, Ms. Hannah Watts, 970-201-7892
(hwatts@fortlewis.edu) if at any time you have any questions, require further
information about the research, or have any concerns about the project. If you
have questions or problems about your rights or any ethical considerations,
please contact the FLC Institutional Review Board representative, Richard
Miller, at 970-247-7426.
Note: The Colorado Governmental
Immunity Act determines and may limit Fort Lewis College’s legal responsibility
if an injury happens because of this study. Claims against the College must be
filed within 180 days of the injury.
Participation in this research project
is completely voluntary. If you choose not to participate there will be no
negative effects. If you do not wish to participate you can either ignore this
survey request or decline to push the “send” button at any time during the
course of completing the survey. Thank you very much for your participation;
your assistance is greatly appreciated.
1.
Did you read and do
you agree to the information above?
2.
Would you like to
remain anonymous?
3.
What is your gender?
4.
What is your age
range?
5.
How would you
describe your church activity?
6.
How long have you
been a member?
7.
Do you think that priesthood
ordination should be available to women? Why or why not?
8.
Is female ordination
something you have discussed with your friends and family? (Please Explain
9.
As a man or a woman,
does your role at church differ from your role at home? How?
10. Do you read any Mormon Internet blogs? If yes, which ones
and approximately how often?
11. If you read blogs that focus on gender issues, what do you
think got you interested in this topic?
12. Do you write a blog? If yes, what do you write about?
13. Do you write blogs related to gender issues?
14. How long have you been blogging about gender issues, and
what made you start?
15. Do you participate in any activities related to the topic
outside of writing for the Internet? Please explain.
16. The LDS church has changed some of its membership and other
policies in the past. Do you think that change is good for the church and its
membership? Please explain.
17. Are there other comments you would like to make related to
any of the issues I have raised in this survey?
18. Would you be open to further questions?
Respondent Demographics:
Gender: 118 Woman, 32 Man, 1 Other
Age Range: 18-25 53, 25-35 44, 35-45
26, 45-55 14, 55-65 11, 65+ 2
Church Activity: Very active 95,
moderately active 27, less active 17, not attending 12
Blogs Analyzed:
bycommonconsent.com
zelophehadsdaughters.com
wheatandtares.org
feminsitmormonhousewives.org
dovesandserpents.org
modernmormonmen.com
youngmormonfeminists.org
[i] In
this paper I will use LDS and Mormon interchangeably. Either reference refers
to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day saints.
[iii]
A book of remembrance is like a journal, but may also include family history,
pedigree charts, important documents etc…
[iv]
Mormons believe in continuous revelation, that God is the head of the church
and only under his direction are changes made.
[v] It
is important for anthropologists to acknowledge the limitations of their
experience and to be conscious and forthright about the relationship they have
to the people they study. Outsiders can often provide perspectives that those
immersed in the culture cannot see, and autoethnographers can understand
concepts that are impossible for strangers to understand. As education and
resources become available to more of the world’s crevices, the positions of
outsider and insider are growing closer together. The superficial differences
between humans are becoming less relevant, and the relationships between people
and their cultures are becoming more complex. Self-anthropology is as important
as ever.
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